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What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
Submitted by tammy

There are many things that people do for me but one in particular was when EGP ( Elite Guerilla Posse ) welcomed me into the family. I've heard a lot of groups that does support issues and what not but what people don't realize is that it cost money to be in one of those types of groups. When EGP came along, I was like "WOW". I've never been so in love with a mass majority of people. Tila Tequila actually started this group. I didn't want to join just because her name was behind it, I wanted to join because of the message that it had. When I applied for this group, I wasn't expecting to be accepted. Do to my suprise, I was a member. This group shows so much love and support to one another that it's amazing. Some people never will get the chance to meet but thru EGP, we're all one big happy family. Being in this group gave me a lot of inspiration to write a song about it.

Some people enter my life for one reason and one reason only...DRAMA. They figure that since I get a lot of attention, they want attention as well. I'm an entertainer and being around a lot of people is basically what I do. I can't help that people love me and want to always be around me.

I go out to my uncle's bar RUMORS you know just chillin and having a good time. Well, some random as people show up and want to act an ass in my uncles joint. I'm not the type of person who likes to get into confrontation but I also don't like derespectful muthafuckas either. I politely walk up to them and ask them to settle down a lil bit or they'll have to leave. Well this one chick in particular knew who I was and started to get all extra loud. I bagged back to see what the hell she was all about ( you know, just incase I had to pull out my vasoline ). Anyway, she started to yell all types of stuff like " just because you make music and everybody knows you don't mean you can get all up in my face...blah blah blah ".

As the night went on, my crew was eying someone in the back. I looked to see who it was and I'm like " Aw, hell, I'm bout to fight'. This chick hates me so much because she thought that I was trying to get her guy. Baby Bye...nobody wants that broke ass muthafucka. So she comes up to my face and starts to open her mouth but then she stopped. I looked at her sideways and then I looked down. She extended her hand.

I know that this story seems like a forever story that's because it is. So what i'm gonna do is up load a podcast and let you guys hear it that way.

i really don't have anything to say but i'm starting to like this blogging stuff so this is what i'm doing.

i just ate dinner at my parents how and now i'm really full. we had chicken patties, rice, corn and texas toast. my son smashed that food. i guess you can say that he was hungry. run's house is getting ready to come on  and i've been missing a few episodes. the reason is because i work the midnight shift and so i;m always busy when it comes on but tonight i'm done doing what i have to do so i'll be able to watch it. well...the show just came on and i'm going to watch it now.

Which TV chef would you want to have prepare a meal for you?

PUALA DEAN!!!! That lady is off the chain. I love the countriness about her. The things that she makes never look good on anyone else's show.

I really don't like to cook ( i can i just don't ) but since I've been watching her show, i love to try the things that she makes.

She's not a boring host either. She loves to have fun. She makes standing in that HOT AS HELL kitchen a lot of fun. My brother is a natural cook by nature and he never watches people that cook on t.v. When he ran across PUALA DEAN, he watches her everyday and even bought her book(s).

Paula to me is the best tv chef ever.

Would you ever consider having your life taped for a reality show?

Honestly, I think that it'll be hella cool for my life as a reality show. My life is very interesting and I think that could actually learn something. My life deals with everything. I am in the music industry and being on a reality show will let the world know who I really am.

I've seen the stuff on tv now and they need someone real. Someone that's gonna give it to them raw and uncut.

I've audtioned for many reality shows but they want people who want to act. I'm just trying to keep it real.

What's good wit it all? Well, i'm in the Entertainment Industry and I have first hand news on pretty much everything. So if anyone wants to know about someone or something then just let me know. If I don't know then it wouldn't take me long to find out.

Ok, Tila is my homie and all but the relationship with GF Courtenay is fake. The reason why I say this is because, A SHOT OF LOVE 3 is taking auditions as we speak. I understand that she's looking for love but man, you don't have to keep putting your business out there like that. You've been hurt twice on t.v. and now you wanna do it again. I just hope that you find whoever you are looking for soon.

Courtenay seems like a cool chick but I don't know if she's the right one for Tila. Let's back up a little. If you guys ever watch the Tyra Banks Show, Tila was on there and she said that her celebrity crush is Lindsey Lohan. Well, Courtenay is Lindsey's ex. I think that she's dating Courteney to get close to Lindsey. There's a lot of things that I could say but Tila is my girl so I won't put her business int the streets like that.

Spirit That Lives Within!

By Old Loak © 2007

Inspired by: *~Driven By Purpose~*

As I look into the mirror I can't believe what I've found,

It's so moving and humbling, that the tears start falling down,

I feel like I'm not worthy of the gift that I've been given,

It's the kind of gift that makes life worth living,

How could I explain these feelings that I feel,

Exposing my heart and soul, giving me a chance to live,

You spoke to my mother's womb, even before my birth,

Telling me that I'm called to your service to perform your holy work,

For you said, I am called by your name,

That I should confess it and you will proclaim,

In my daily walk people can't really see,

The life that lives inside of me,

When I open my mouth I can't help but confess,

How you delivered me, from all of life's mess,

For you are a light unto my feet and a lamp to my path,

So when the weapons form against me, the enemy will feel your wrath,

For you said, touch not my anointed and do my prophet no harm,

You continue to keep me safe in the bosom of your arms

I feel like Abraham, because you are my true friend,

I thank you everyday, for the spirit that lives within

I felt the need to upgrade my profile because a lot of things has changed in my life. I'm still the same "RIDE OR DIE CHICK" that I've always was but I'm more grown with it now. I just want to let you know who I am.

My family is my backbone and my most trusted support team ever. They praise me when I'm on my game and they bring me back when they feel that I need to regroup. The love that I have for my family can over power any situation that comes my way. My son is the center of my life. I never do anything that I feel that would put him in any danger. I always think of my son before I do things because I don't want him growing up and seeing me and not be happy of what he's seen or heard. My son comes before everyone.

I am a dancer. Dancing to me releases a lot of tension. I've been dancing since I was 2. If I couldn't dance, I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Now that I am a accomplished dancer, I teach a lot of young girls that want to pursue dancing. I do a lot of things for the Boys & Girls Club. I put dances together for the young girls and we also do competitions. They are like my extened sisters. You can catch a glimpse of some of them in my "Video" section. I've done many competitions throughout the Untied States and won most of them. I'm in this group now that is mad coo. We've traveled all over the U.S. for competions and video shoots. I love the people that I can share my passion with. We are going to take over the world.

My music is also something that I can't live without. I can let loose whenever I need to in song. Whenever I need to get my thoughts out, I'm hitting the studio like crazy. My music squad is mad coo. They brought this lil' country girl to the camp and it's been all love ever since. They are my family outside of my family.

The modeling that I do is for promotion purposes. I just started doing professional modeling for a bout a year now and I'm loving it. I've done print work for different clothing lines and department stores stuff but nothing is like working with the people that I work with.

Now that you have entered into my world, feel free to stay as long as you like.

"U RESPECT ME, I'LL RESPECT U...U LOVE ME, I'LL LOVE U...U RIDE FOR ME, I'LL RIDE FOR U...U DIE FOR ME, I'LL DIE FOR U".